Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life and only a few find it.
There is no journey that compares to the difficulty of the journey of exploration within oneself. It is the hardest journey that you will ever make and the bible emphasises this in the words ‘But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life and only a few find it.’
Diary Entry: 08.07.07
‘What am I doing with my life these days?’ my brother’s girlfriend asked me. Time stood still as a pondered an answer that would satisfy. It is as though the world is moving swiftly around me and I am standing still; have I completely lost my marbles. I spend day after day writing, meditating, and looking for experiential answers to my quest for the truth. I am experiencing more pain frustration and inner turmoil than ever before because I have heightened my awareness to my sensations. I take comfort in the fact that at least the cycles are less frequent. The troughs are not as deep or as drawn out as before and the peaks are a lot higher so I press on. I don’t wish to turn back the clock; I don’t wish to return to how my life was before. I need to keep my mind balanced when times are hard and when negativity begins to build up or I am in danger of losing sight of who I am and who I want to be. The journey may seem daunting, but I have to take heart and draw courage from the fact that others have walked this path before me and like them I have at my disposal an unrelenting source of peace, strength and encouragement within me.
The path to salvation is not an easy one to walk along. Even with the best intentions you’ll find life’s distractions and desires tugging at your robes, battling with your mind and heart ready to divert you from your original journey to find out the truth. In the face of such hindrances you may find yourself concluding that it is impossible to test the viability of this cause. It is only those who truly believe that there is a truth out there that will persevere and succeed in finding it.